My name is Lucy and I am a yoga and mindfulness teacher, and coach, based in Tunbridge Wells, Kent
I spent 15 years working in finance and consulting after university, experiencing bouts of debilitating depression, addicted to the working-money-spending-drinking-shopping- working-money cycle that is so endemic in our society. I believed this was normal life. I found my job reasonably interesting, but something never seemed quite right. I was always chasing after men who were unavailable or who did not love me enough. I had absolutely no idea who I was. I felt stuck and powerless, living a life that didn’t feel right, a life that seemed to have no end and over which I had no say, just an endless circle of work and spending and failed relationships.
Five years ago I woke up. I woke up to the fact that I was stuck believing that life had to be like this, that this was who I was and all I was worth. I realised I had leaked too much of my personal power to people, beliefs and stuff. I gradually began to unstick myself. First I started to meditate and attend a group which discussed and questioned the ego-driven lives we lead, with people that understood that there is more to life than this. I visited Ibiza and spent time with people who lived different lives, which proved that there was more to life than I had experienced. Next went the normal job, I began doing something similar, but as a freelancer, which meant greater financial insecurity but far less emotional attachment to work as a source of self-worth.
Gradually I began exploring things that I was truly passionate about, and grow into the person I always have been but has been hiding under a layer of bullshit for goodness knows how long. I also started to drink and shop less – I no longer wanted to numb the feelings inside me. And the more I felt, the happier I was, and the less I wanted to numb. And as I did these things, I noticed that my personal power started to return.
I left my corporate job in February 2015 and travelled to Bali to train as a yoga teacher with Bridget Woods Kramer. I then spent seven months living in Ibiza, working as a yoga teacher and for a local hiking company. I returned to Tunbridge Wells at Christmas 2015 to start my business locally. I realised I missed home and my family, despite the obvious delights of Ibiza and the Mediterranean. Part of this was a desire to feel grounded and to build a business that helped people in their everyday lives, not just on their holidays.
I still suffer from depressive episodes and I’m very open about that. Yoga and mindfulness have helped me develop a new relationship with these episodes, so they are less overwhelming and debilitating. I am better able to take care of myself and see the good even when things seem awful.
I use my own experience of transformation to assist clients in their personal journey, be it on the yoga mat, in the meeting room, or out in everyday life. I would love to hear from you if anything in my story has resonated with you.